Ashes is a song that I’ve held close to me for a decade. A close friend of mine in Las Vegas was murdered. When I found out, I was devastated. I didn’t know his family, I wasn’t invited to the funeral. I hadn’t seen him for a while before it happened and I never got to say goodbye to him.
I thought of writing a song, but then again, I thought “who am I to write a song about him”. I was afraid of making light of something serious or on the other side of the spectrum, not being able to perform it because it was too painful.
As years passed, the words to the song completed themselves. I write a lot of songs as poems first. Then I put melodies and accompaniment to them.. this was one of those songs. I had it all written, but I still wasn’t sure it was a good idea to put it into the world.
Around this time, I was back in Las Vegas getting tattooed. I brought this up to the artist because it was on my mind and by a one in a million chance this artist had just tattooed by dead friend’s mother. A decade later, she got a tattooed memorial of her son. The artist said she couldn’t’ imagine the woman being upset that someone remembered him so well..
I recorded the song as a demo and sent it to a hero of mine, Sylvia Massy, hoping she would mix it. She took a liking to it and me - she mixed the original “Demo” version of the song. We worked so well together that Sylvia then produced first my album Love Decayed.
This new version of Ashes, the final version, was produced by Chris Harms from Lord of Lost. Chris brought an edge to the track and added a piece of himself into the recording through his guitars and drums. The final version is very much a collaboration of styles between Chris and myself - I think it tells the story well.
credits
released September 24, 2021
“Ashes” produced and engineered by Chris Harms and Yasmin M Haddad.
Mixed by Benjamin Lawrenz at Chameleon Studios, Hamburg, Germany.
Mastered by Jeremy Cimeno.
Published by NightNight Music / Songs of Schubert LA (ASCAP)
I've always enjoyed Boy Harsher but I don't think they ever really clicked in my brain until I watched The Runner. Now I can't get enough. Gordon Skramzy (Nathan)
Nichts - yes, just that as a reflection of my current circumstances & thinkings of a life itself. Album is great! After a long, long time, brought me back to Selofan. I alwayas liked that cold-wave/dark-wave sound. vladimir milojkovity
UK rock duo Family Man solder hard rock hooks to an industrial pop mainframe; sleek, chromed-out arrangements with a nu metal menace. Bandcamp New & Notable Nov 10, 2021
Cinematic-scale goth from Reflection Black with catchy melodies, dreamy synths, punchy rhythms, and a sense of timelessness. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 21, 2023